:/
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and then.

im feeling so.. confused? depressed? overly stressing out or freaking out over everything else?

whatever.

i knew this was coming, i just didnt want to accept it.
i'd rather be stuck,still, in this denial mental state that i am now.

but then again, how can i.

being labeled irresponsible/useless/'not up to it'/lousy.
seriously, whatever.

still, HOW CAN I?

i'm really at a total complete loss to what i am to do.
no matter how much i had tried before,i just couldn't grasp of what was going on.
really, i don't deserve this.
neither do they.

i can't do anything without thinking about this now.
it just keeps urging me to 'START!'.
but what can i do.
i know nothing. i'm a failure,i'll admit it.