Realize by Colbie Caillat
Realize

Take time to realize,
That your warmth is. Crashing down on in.
Take time to realize,
That I am on your side
Didn't I, Didn't I tell you.

But I can't spell it out for you,
No it's never gonna be that simple
No I cant spell it out for you

If you just realize what I just realized,
Then we'd be perfect for each other
And will never find another
Just realized what I just realized
We'd never have to wonder if
We missed out on each other now.

Take time to realize
Oh-oh I'm on your side
Didn't I, didn't I tell you.
Take time to realize
This all can pass you by.. Didn't I tell you

But I can't spell it out for you,
No its never gonna be that simple
No I can't spell it out for you.

If you just realized what I just realized
Then we'd be perfect for each other
And we'll never find another
Just realized what I just realized
We'd never have to wonder if
We missed out on each other but.

It's not always the same
No it's never the same
If you don't feel it to.
If you meet me half way
If you would meet me half way.
It could be the same for you.

If you just realized what I just realized
Then we'd be perfect for each other
And we'll never find another
Just realized what I just realized
We'd never have to wonder
Just realized what I just realized

Oh

Missed out on each other now
Missed out on each other now

Realize
Realize
Realize

by Colbie Caillat

e-learning): &happyme(:
heeeelloooooooooooooooo (:

its been a week since i've blog.
whooosh you e-learning!
i seriously hate it!
but i don't have to wake up so early(:

i went to the sch lib yest with kim, met at 10am!
rain like madddd.
did bio only!
when we were there for so so very long okay!

i went to her house later and jinny came too(;
slacked like the whole time in her house! hahaha!
left her house at... 430pm!

got home!
continued e-learning crap >:/

and today!
more crapoooo e-learning.

now im left with eng-lit and chinese cause their written.
and im trying to figure out how to do the PE part 1b).
ohwells, if i cant figure out chinese and PE part 1b0 , i'll go to school and ask some smarty(:

thats the best solution i can come up with so farr. hahahahahaaha

now my back hurts, my neck hurts, my eye hurts.
everywhere hurts!

and the sec3s are enjoying stjohns island i suppose?
or at least i think they are better off than us!
>:p

and im crazy over these!

sara bareilles
"love song"

colbie caillat
"bubbly"
"realize"

like whoooooohoooooooooooo! loveyoualways(:

&& i shall post the "realize" lyrics next ;)

im still feeling utterly stress over those projects.
&utterly depressed.
i need a stress ball.

teachers don't really understand do they?
nope, not at all. and i don't think they bother to try to understand.

anyways, enough about utterly depressing thoughts!

patrol cip tmr! (:
(actually, its not really patrol cip since not even half the patrol is going)
(ohwells, at least i have cip hours, and there's still PATROL OUTING!!!!!)
(btw, no copying! hahaha, jk(?) )

on sat with juliana; on sunday with joeytok!

the whole world's asking me if im going for funtasia, i cant!
(reason above!)
i wanted to go for funtasia though...
but i can break my promise. and let Juliana go alone right! (if so, whats the point of going alone?!?)

&&&JUBILATE!
yayeeee, im going yeah!
im so so so excited.

&&&&&!!! GATEWAY!!
its coming sooooon sooooon soooon!
not the world can contain my excitedness whoooo!

&yet again, not the world can contain my depressed-ness.

but good always beat evil right!

toooodles!
beverly(:

Love Song by Sara Bareilles
Love Song

Head underwater
And they tell me
To breathe easy for a while
Breathing gets harder, even I know that
Made room for me; but it's too soon to see
If I'm happy in your hands
I'm unusually hard to hold on to

Blank stares at blank pages
No easy way to say this
You mean well, but you make this hard on me

I'm not gonna write you a love song
'cause you asked for it
'cause you need one, you see
I'm not gonna write you a love song
'cause you tell me it's
Make or break in this
If you're on your way
I'm not gonna write you to stay
If all you have is leavin',
Imma need a better reason
To write you a love song today (today)

I learned the hard way
That they all say
Things you want to hear
And my heavy heart sinks deep down under you and
Your twisted words,
Your help just hurts
You are not what I thought you were
Hello to high and dry

Convinced me to please you
Made me think that I need this too
I'm trying to let you hear me as I am

I'm not gonna write you a love song
'cause you asked for it
'cause you need one, you see
I'm not gonna write you a love song
'cause you tell me it's
Make or break in this
If you're on your way
I'm not gonna write you to stay
If all you have is leavin',
Imma need a better reason
To write you a love song today

Promise me that you'll leave the light on
To help me see with daylight, my guide, gone
'cause I believe there's a way you can love me
Because I say
I won't write you a love song
'cause you asked for it
'cause you need one, you see

I'm not gonna write you a love song
'cause you tell me it's make or break in this
Is that why you wanted a love song
'cause you asked for it
'cause you need one, you see
I'm not gonna write you a love song
'cause you tell me it's make or break in this
If you're on your way
I'm not gonna write you to stay
If your heart is nowhere in it
I don't want it for a minute
Babe, I'll walk the seven seas when I believe that
There's a reason to
Write you a love song today

by Sara Bareilles

the song is darn it nice!
and the music video is super cool (:
its brightened up my day!


bubbly by Colbie Caillat
Bubbly

I've been awake for a while now
You've got me feelin' like a child now
'Cause every time I see your bubbly face
I get the tinglees in a silly place

It starts in my toes
And I crinkle my nose
Wherever it goes I always know
That you make me smile
Please stay for a while now
Just take your time
Wherever you go

The rain is fallin' on my window pane
But we are hidin' in a safer place
Under the covers stayin' safe and warm
You give me feelings that I adore

They start in my toes
Make me crinkle my nose
Wherever it goes
I always know
That you make me smile
Please stay for a while now
Just take your time
Wherever you go

What am I gonna say
When you make me feel this way?
I just, mmm

It starts in my toes
Makes me crinkle my nose
Wherever it goes
I always know
That you make me smile
Please stay for a while now
Just take your time
Wherever you go

I've been asleep for a while now
You tucked me in just like a child now
'Cause every time you hold me in your arms
I'm comfortable enough to feel your warmth

It starts in my soul
And I lose all control
When you kiss my nose
The feelin' shows
'Cause you make me smile
Baby just take your time now
Holdin' me tight

Wherever, wherever, where ever you go
Wherever, wherever, where ever you go

by Colbie Caillat

its all left that comforts me now.
&though the lyrics aint all that, i still love it.
esp the tune (:

-
hello.

yeah, you all heard i guess.
these kinda stuff spreads like fire.

laugh all you want, i don't really care what you think okay.
end of story.
so don't every mention it to me ever again, i don't wanna listen.

btw, you can put your pretense aside, i can see through that mask of yours.
gloat all you want, i hate you.
thats all i have to say to you.

school's beginning to suck.
for me, its the start of something devastating.
everything seems to suck.

all the way sucker.

okay, so let me think.

1.macbeth(e-lit)
2.persuasive speech(eng)
3.chi lit(i don't even know what im supp to do)
4.playground(maths)
5.IPW(indian beliefs&superstitions)
6.science fair(whooohoo,hope we get into the finals!)
7.home e

like whatthehell luhh, how can they just throw everything at us all at once?
and the deadline's so tight.
not forgetting all the other tests, etc.

whats next?
PE?art?chinese?

what!

i think i just need my own space for now
im gonna blow.

im sick :/ help backdrop (:
helllo!

im so sick! like ohmygosh.
its super depressing! ):

my nose is like blocked yet its annoying too. but at least i dont sneeze as much. BUT ITS BLOCKED! hurrrrrrrrrrhur.
and my throat is damn dry, i can talk properly, but its very uncomfortable.
esp when i have to breathe through my mouth its super irritated and dry then i have to drink loads of water. all because i have blocked nose :/
it really sucks.

borrowed tissue box from 1w again(:
their nice people to lend me!
and ms chan(1w form t) saw me with the tissue box when xinyee passed it to me, but didnt know it was the class's tissue box. how dumb. i thought she was gonna qns me! xP

and like almost the whole front row(where i am) is infected!
goshhhh!
maybe teachers would get infected, its such a high risk, then we wont have to go to school xP

and the 1W tissue box was passing round the whole class!
Then left very little in that small little box.

today went to help backdrop with yt.
only tab,janicechua and wanting were there from backdrop.
ltr, goat, bunny and jinny went to 'help' too.
we didnt help much, i just did a little tracing and stuff then went to train standing broad, sit&reach and slack!

beatrice came later, then left after awhile.

standing broad is hard, aso is sit and reach.
i really want gold :/
i doubt i'll have much chances this year.

walked to the traffic light with chua and yt.
chua took opposite side then me and yt took 76!

chua and me had a goooooooood chat later (:
hahahahahahahahahahah.

funtasia.
i wanna go.
giving out goodie bags? like lol, but i still wanna go.
urgh.

<3 beverly! (:

flu bug! bubble tea! scandals!
the whole world's heard the news.
i shall be happy for them
congrats to first coy!must jiayou.

i've been having flu the whole dayy!
like ohmygosh!
i had to ask practically everyone in the class if they had tissue!
i had to even resort to taking onewisdom's class tissue box!
actually i had only ask xinyee and friends if they had, then xinyee gave me the whole box.
haha, of course i returned it later!

my flu's still here.
sickening,
i need to drink orange juice x)

ohmymy, the scandals have been increasing!!
so its :
bunny and goat
the 'les' partners, who claims they arent 'les'. hmm.

and theres more to come!
thanks to me and lijuan's great observation skills! (:

and the sun provides vitamin D or E???
me and siming are fighting for our answer.
mine- vitamin E
bunny's- vitamin D

which is the correct!
please vote(:

and during drills today, there was a big fly on my back!
i cant believe there i was actually doing drills with that thing on me!
qmaybe because of it thats why i had sweat so much more than usual, like my whole face was wet!
then alot of sweat went into my eyes, then i started tearing, it was very pain.
so it looked like i was crying or sth! booooo.

after school, i went to help the unity people to sell their bubble tea.
because of the fact that me and joey are great patrol members! yaye~ love us!
see how bonded we are! <3
kaising,dew and rebecca were there too, with 2 others girls from 2truth.

its like always the same few people from the class who's helping out - joey, kaising,dew, etc.
at least thats what i saw.

it was quite fun helping out!
hahahahahah.

and miss choo, their form t, is so nice!
heheee.

their total sale is 380, minus 200 (their expenditure) is 180! woah, thats quite alot!
and its only today or today's lunch!
they get back their seed $$$ plus profit!
like ohmygod lah.

maybe 2grace should do that too!
we'll be super rich!!!!!

i heard we'll be having gateway soon, around end of the month.
thats like so long later, and we have such a short time left.

im getting bites everywhere.
and flu is annoying
both put together is like.
RAWR!

persuasive speech sucks!
i don't know what to write.
shucks.

this friday's guides session is different from usual ones.
we have to fall in at the sec AVA room, have a guides initiative preparation ( although im not sure what that is ) and then end.
thats so weird, like fall in in the ava??
hmm, ohwells.

byebyebye!!
beverly <3

ndp :/
hello again!
enjoyed my gangshow post?
hahah (:
i bet you did!

5thapr;saturday

ndp first selection!

they only selected based on height, 12th apr is the real selection.
and it also was to let us have a taste of what its gonna be like.

and its ohmygod, tough!
and the commands are hard too! im a freakin retard so i obviously take a real long time to know what the commands are.
and i still cant figure out some.
rawr!
makes me rather stress and tense when im in squad with all those other guides.

and the timing is fast, and i esp hate it when we have to march on the spot.

i cant stand to timing.

i think i won't get selected and all..

gah, i suck.

hello, and byebye world.

ACS(I) gangshow!
hello friends!

4thapril;friday

had my world centres retest!
finished in no time (:
just that i put a very stupid answer for one qns, the markers would laugh their heads stupid.
and i bet it'll spread like fire, then i'll be known as the stupid one. hahah.
crap me. booo.

drills;
we had drills for a little while only. then had abit of pt.
ohmy, i kept laughing at some point of time. hahaha.
me and yt's 90degree cheat. (its supp to be 45degrees!) :X
then played contact.
it was fun at first, then became boring. :/
next, gangshow at ACS(i)! (:
(its not a campfire, its a gangshow!)
hahahahahahahahahahahahahahah

changed, then left in the bus!
sat with that goat at peace! hahaha (everyone's starting to call her goatpeace/goat. THATS GOOD! haha. x) )
helped that stupid goat polish her enrollment badge! and made my hands all brasso-ish.
eeek! i don't know whjy i was so persistent to polish it in the first place! xP hah.

reached ACS(i)! took a group photo! hahahahh.

later queued up for quite some time. then asked why we were queuing for so so long.
cheryl go say we were going in a haunted house!
i freaked.
she were just joking only luhh!
later then realised it was really a haunted house!
like ohmygosh!
then the sec3s in front passed down the message "scream at everything"
like whattheheck.

but even w/o then saying this, i would have still done so.
:X

so i entered, holding the goat and later finding myself clutching onto shangmeei's bag,
hahaha. i screamed at every possible thing i saw (at least felt, since it was zero light)

goat said shermaine was abit pissed since we were all screaming like mad cows, plus i was only in front of her and i was screaming alot alot. hahaha

so we sat down and waited in this air-con hall. super cool (:

me and goat got separated from the rest of the sec 2s cause there were not enough seats ):

went to the row in front of them, shermaine was sitting beside goat, and me on the extreme left.

the theme was "A Scary Movie"
hahah, a funny theme.
then theres this banner with the "heros" show cheerleader animated pic, with the words "Save us from the cheerleader, save the world"
so the gangshow started with the given mindset that "save the cheerleader, save the world"
so the more i thought about the 2 diff meanings, i thought there was some typo error.
apparently, there wasnt. at the end, the characters were actually meant to be mistaken and found out that they were supp to be saved from the cheerleader, not save her!

stupid luhh.

anyways, i had this eerie feeling that a weird freak ghost would come and attack me from the back since i was sitting at the extreme side.
i felt so very insecure, so i kept turning nack to see if there was really anyone.
i thought i was being paranoid.
but here's the interesting part;

i turned back again, beginning to think i was really paranoid and decided to not turn back to check again.
but!
i really saw some freak with a mask! i freaked out, then started to panic and then stood up, still not sure of what to do yet.
as that 'thing' approached, nearing me, i like panicked like madd.
then i tried to squeeze in somewhat, but i obviously couldnt.
but i squeezed in as much as i could, all the same, not thinking of what state the people beside me were in.

later i realised that the goat was like sitting half of shermaine's seat when i squeezed in, and i was screaming too, i think.

that was so embarrassing.

seriously.

RAWR.

that 'thing' didnt come again later, but i still was wary of it.

hahaha.

they gangshow got loads of cool scenes!
like alot of it got some real cool dances!
like doing handstands while doing push ups at the same time!
hahahah. freakin cool.
i loved it.
really.

and some scenes really humorous.
like sick but funnaye.
like this for instance;
okay, so our side of the hall was called ________ ( i dont know how to spell it, or pronounce it :X )
and the other panther , or sth like that.
we had this game, then the participating players, 4 people representing each group, had to dress up one person and state what the super power is.
our group's one was so decent, the other's was like sick, haha
our's was the hair's the super power.
its cliche, but decent!
the other was this guy dressed up at some home-e like looking person (cause of some newspaper wrapped around like some apron) and boobs made out of newspaper balls.
like so gross can, at least i didnt think it was proper.
and its super power was obviously the boobs.

haha, our group won (:

got this other game, and dew represented us!(:

thats so cool.

the game:
a guy and girl was to pair up.
its like musical chairs just that their using newspapers, and the newspapers get lesser and smaller every round!

dew and her guy mate was in the finals! against this other pair from the other group.
and dew's guy mate like followed her everywhere behind her!
she's like some ' lao3 po2 da4 ren2' ! hahah!
and their super kaisu!
thats was so funny!

and because the newspaper was so small, the pair had to be on one tiny part.
the other pair was so gross can, like a pair of lovers, they help on to each other, like hugging, while trying to balance!
but dew and her guy friend were like on one foot, so much more decent! xP

yaye, dew and friend won!!!
means that our group won again (:

yayeness.

did i mention that dew and her guy friend were so compatible? hahah.

when it all ended, kim's mum fetched me to the yck mrt (:
and cheryl to her grand's house!

tata!
i sahll post the npd in the another post (:

so many, so little time.
this is my 101th post! yeah,whatever!
hahahahahahahahahaha!

im like trying to find some info bout the science stuff, but cant find what i want! CRAPOOO!
geog test tmr. shucks.
im not prepared. the problem is i can only concentrate at night. and thats quite late.
RAWR!

ohoh,
me and lijuan's 'scandalous' scam!
THE GOAT AND BUNNY ARE CRUSHING EACH OTHER!
thats like ohmygod news can! hahaha.
we have evidence; USE YOUR VISUAL AIDS!

tmr also have world centres retest!
but i have to leave at 530pm for ACS for campfire!!
YAYE, i love campfires! tadaa!haha.
too bad im missing world centres test. im so prepared can. at least, i guess so! xP

930pm campfire end.
kim's mum gonna fetch me to the mrt i think.
yaye, shes so nice luhh. i really should pay some fees to her.
;X

My schedule's freakin pack.

4apr-tests and campfire!
5apr-ndp selection plus the cg's result coming out.(tentative)
12apr-ndp. but! i got science centre on that same day!
how??????! i cant miss ndp! urgh!
27may-healthy lifestyle badge course. & on midnight, i'll leave for genting(which i so don wanna go!)
31may-around afternoon reach home. BUT! theres ndp again! freak! i cant miss it!
stupid. thats one reason i dont wanna go to genting. rawr.
1june(tentative)-patrol outing! <3

everything's so on-the-same-day.
gah.
give me a break will you!

stressed out,
beverly.